I use examen.me’s Journal to mediate in the morning. I am presently going through John’s Gospel, one verse a day. Pulling a verse apart and getting all you can from it takes a bit of doing. It also brings you face to face with the intricacy and delicacy of the text. I recommend it highly as an exercise to bring you closer to God through the Scriptures and to slow you down and make you focus.
Two things struck me today during mediation and rosary. Meditation was on Mark’s short version of Jesus in the desert. It struck me that, in a sense, the desert is an analogy for myself alone, and the temptations, wild beasts both fierce and on the holy mountain, and angels ministering all have a place in me. It may be my first encounter with Satan or a continuing encounter, but it is an encounter. My desert experience may not just occur at the beginning of my life but I return to it daily. It is a fermenting mixture of good and bad…but without the Spirit who led me here and who sustains me, there would indeed be no hope and death in the desert would be inevitable.
It also struck me that there must be a third, assumed but unnamed way to heaven. Jesus ascended, Mary was assumed, and we are…whatever is the physical passing of the soul’s equivalent of saved on a spiritual level.
I pray to God and place everything in his Hands,
but when I worry that I will take back control,
by that worry, I am simply taking back control.
To “Let Go and Let God” is very, very difficult.
Love of God burns bright.
Accept on earth its cleansing flame
with faith in Love He justifies
that we are his beloved sons
But if we refuse, reject, revile
he will deny us
before his Heavenly Father.
Then, surrounded still by God’s
eternal love, we will feel only
the pain of flame
and not the love behind it.
 The Discipline of Love
•Deuteronomy 8:5 Know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so the LORD your God disciplines you.
•Psalm 94:12 Blessed is the man you discipline, O LORD, the man you teach from your law.
•Psalm 119:75 I know, O LORD, that your laws are righteous, and in faithfulness you have afflicted me.
•Proverbs 3:11 My son, do not despise the LORD’s discipline and do not resent his rebuke,
•Proverbs 3:12 because the LORD disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.
• Heb 12:6 “For the LORD disciplines those he loves, and he punishes each one he accepts as his child.”
•Revelation 3:19 Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent.
 Mt 10:33; Mk 8:38; Lk 9:36; 12:9; 2 Tim 2:12.